This photo makes me think. It makes me think of the bad and good. It makes me wonder about a lot of things. So, this is where I end up writing typing my thoughts out. I’m going to rant on about a million and one things, so you might as well not care because this post will be halfway down your page, or even off of your page by the time you refresh your dashboard; therefore, don’t even try and tell me to lay off of the “diary” like post. I can’t sleep tonight. Maybe it’s because of my screwed up sleeping schedule, or maybe not. Maybe it’s because I haven’t tried going to sleep yet, and I keep going back and forth between the computer and phone. I have a lot to do in the morning, but that’s not my concern right now. My concern is about how my emotions are turning into complete and utter mush. For the past week, I have lived without my other half. Yeah, sure I know I am only 18 years old, but trust me, THIS IS REAL. I can’t do anything by myself anymore, I am like a leech and need the oomph of him to keep on going. I hate this.. I have become dependent on a guy. A GUY. I need myself back. I need to draw, continue in my art, be myself again. I’ve like this time to myself, and to spend time with my mom, but I can’t function right. I’m sad inside out. I’m sad outside in. What’s the difference? To me, there is none at the moment. I keep listening to this song, it’s like “I don’t understand why you’re not here tonight,” blah blah blah. Yeah, I really don’t understand, why are you not here by my side tonight? Mm, so I am starting to feel a little better, but I am not stopping until I get EVERYTHING out. I mean EVERYTHING. Oh, so there’s this girl. I’ve known her for a year. I love love love love love love her to death. I would be with her if I was single. Yes, yes I would. In a heart beat. Anyway, there’s this guy who has been by my side tonight. I have never met him, but he’s got a chunk of my heart already. Just a tiny bit, like a sliver. He and I get along. We both love the 80’s, classic rock, and horror films. AHAHFADSFKHDSGNKD. :DDDD
Jan 31st 2012


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